Not a whole lot has happened since my last post. I had a killer sinus infection that kicked my ass and put me out of commission for about two weeks. I can actually sleep and breathe again. The sucky part was not being able do anything, such as going to zumba class. I would have gone tonight but I had to go to a staff meeting. Our staff meetings at Sally's are always the last Tuesday of the month. I also somehow threw my back out for a couple days. The sad part is I'm really not sure how I did it. I just got up off the couch at work and then had pain in my lower back and had a hard time standing and walking. But it only lasted a day and a half. While these things aren't really serious by any means I just feel like it was another set back I could have lived without.
Joe will hopefully start school in the fall. We're both hoping that he will qualify for financial aid this time around. When he did the paperwork I had a whoping nine dollars in my checking account so I'm hoping that will be a good thing when looking at his paperwork. While we both think it will be a good thing in the long run we're not looking forward to never really seeing each other and the toll it will take on his sleep. Joe already has a college degree but obviously isn't using it. He has a teaching degree but realized he didn't want to be a teacher. A few years ago he tried to return to school but took time off as he ended up in the ER with chest pains from anxiety.
On another subject, can I just say that I get pissed off everytime my student loan bill comes in the mail. And I feel like that damn thing never seems to get smaller. If I could do anything over it would be college. I wouldn't have gone until I actually know what I wanted to do. Or I would have gone away to a four year college in another city if I had the priveledge of my parents paying for it all. While my Dad payed for his share of my tuition I also had to pay my own way for quite a bit at SCC. The whole experience is way different when you actually get to go away and just be a student somewhere. Wheras, I had to work all the time at a shitty job that I hated then somehow try to be a student too. I can't say how much I really learned because I had to bullshit my way through quite a bit just to get by. And that's just what I did; I barely scraped by. I couldn't work reduced hours because I had to put a portion of every paycheck away to pay for tuition and books. At least if I had gone away I would have gotten the whole experience and had a lot more fun. All I really have to show for it is a uselesss degree that even if I went and got a masters degree I would make like two more dollars an hour.
I guess that this isn't where I saw myself at twenty-seven years old. I figured I would finally have a car that wasn't shit on wheels, own a home, and have a decent job. And I never thought that I would be this weight ever again. However, I never thought I would be married so I guess it's a good compromise. And I would rather have Joe than all those things but living pay check to paycheck is starting to get old. Not that he or I were ever rich before but at least we didn't need help paying bills.
I also have extreme guilt getting help. Mainly because I've always been the one that never needed help because I was the responsible one. And I can't help but think where we would be without help. Homeless probably, or with a credit score in toilet. I would like to take this time to recognize my family also. If I hadn't had their support during college I would have just dropped out because I know I never would have made it. I almost did drop out quite a few times. (Although I'm not convinced that I shouldn't have) If I had become a Subway manager I would be making at waaay more money. But at least I still have my soul and didn't have to sell it, which is what I would have had to do there.
I'm just feeling very unsatisified with life. I feel like every morning I start out on a conquest but it just ends in failure by the time I go to bed. I know I have a lot of great things but I guess I'm just envious of all the things I don't have. One of my favorite quotes from "As Good as it Gets" (great movie if you haven't seen it) goes like this. "You're not pissed off that you had it so bad, you're just pissed that others had it so good." Or something to that effect. Sorry to be a Debbie downer but I just don't have any stories about rainbows and ponies or potato salad right now.
Wednesday, April 27, 2011
Sunday, April 10, 2011
More Updates
I'm happy to say that moving went fairly well and we are all unpacked. Our new washer and dryer got here on Thursday. Well new to us anyway. My grandpa bought it used for us and we are happy to have it. Going to my moms for laundry was a giant pain in the ass. I'm undecided if I want to try and plant flowers or not. I'm not much of a green thumb and pretty much kill everything. And I really don't care for yard work. I mean I killed a cactus once for God's sake. Apparently you need to bring it inside once it starts to frost outside.
I'm also proud to report that I got a new job. It's a subbing position for Central Valley School District. It's very part time but it's a foot in the door and more money so that's a good thing. I'll be going to all the different schools filling in for staff. No actual teaching or anything like that. My first assignment was a week ago. I worked as a lunch supervisor. I basically walked around and stared at kids eat lunch and made sure they didn't kill each other. I'd say it was a success. I'll still be keeping my Sally's House job as well. The old saying it's not what you know, it's who you know is very true. Especially in this town. My aunt Kari got me the job. All I had to do was turn in the application packet. When I thought I was going to my interview I was actually filling out all my paperwork and got my badge picture taken. It's not my ideal job but I'll take it. Funny how I really don't care for children but yet I keep getting jobs working with them.
One good thing about getting this job is no more unemployment. I'm tired of filing my claims and dealing with them. Planned Parenthood also tried to appeal the states original decision so they wouldn't have to pay. Which was really annoying and nerve wracking at the same time. If I lost I would have to pay back all the money they've been giving me. The hearing was over the phone at 7:30 AM. I did have a witness who worked w/me so I wasn't totally screwed. But it was horrible experience. The judge was an asshole and acted like I was a screw up and was way below him. Planned Parenthood had their representative go over every single mistake I ever made while training to try and make me look bad. And by the way; it's totally unfair that they get a representative and I get no one. At one point the judge even asked me, "I mean how hard is it???" "That doesn't sound that difficult." Even my old boss sounded offended and interjected that it was not as easy as it sounds and there was lots to do. I basically felt like a deer in headlights then was run over by the truck several times. But I did win since there was no misconduct involved. (Duh!!!!!!!) Which is the only reason someone can't collect unemployment, so I don't really know why they wasted their time with the appeal.
I was went back to the Doctor last week. I had a breathing test and another chest x-ray. No news really. My test were normal and my chest x-ray was the same. I go back in three months for another one just to make sure that none of the lymph nodes grow drastically or anything. I still haven't heard back on getting my hospital bill reduced so I'm hoping that is a good sign.
I have also started doing Zumba classes. It's a great workout and totally fun. It's three dollars a class or five if you do double classes. A couple of my friends started going so I decided to give it a try. Some of the dances are a little harder than others but it's still a good time. I have also started to weight watchers again. It's pretty much the only diet that ever really works for me. I just don't do well eating weird gross food that someone else tells me to eat and when. I have lost three pounds already and look forward to my pants fitting again.
Joe is also doing weight watchers with me. There are some good and bad things about us doing it together. It's good that we are both trying to do the same thing and not eat crap in front of the other person. However, he gets way more points than I do and always loses more weight. Which is crap. Stupid female metabolism. I hope to say that it's going well in future posts. That's pretty much it for now.
I'm also proud to report that I got a new job. It's a subbing position for Central Valley School District. It's very part time but it's a foot in the door and more money so that's a good thing. I'll be going to all the different schools filling in for staff. No actual teaching or anything like that. My first assignment was a week ago. I worked as a lunch supervisor. I basically walked around and stared at kids eat lunch and made sure they didn't kill each other. I'd say it was a success. I'll still be keeping my Sally's House job as well. The old saying it's not what you know, it's who you know is very true. Especially in this town. My aunt Kari got me the job. All I had to do was turn in the application packet. When I thought I was going to my interview I was actually filling out all my paperwork and got my badge picture taken. It's not my ideal job but I'll take it. Funny how I really don't care for children but yet I keep getting jobs working with them.
One good thing about getting this job is no more unemployment. I'm tired of filing my claims and dealing with them. Planned Parenthood also tried to appeal the states original decision so they wouldn't have to pay. Which was really annoying and nerve wracking at the same time. If I lost I would have to pay back all the money they've been giving me. The hearing was over the phone at 7:30 AM. I did have a witness who worked w/me so I wasn't totally screwed. But it was horrible experience. The judge was an asshole and acted like I was a screw up and was way below him. Planned Parenthood had their representative go over every single mistake I ever made while training to try and make me look bad. And by the way; it's totally unfair that they get a representative and I get no one. At one point the judge even asked me, "I mean how hard is it???" "That doesn't sound that difficult." Even my old boss sounded offended and interjected that it was not as easy as it sounds and there was lots to do. I basically felt like a deer in headlights then was run over by the truck several times. But I did win since there was no misconduct involved. (Duh!!!!!!!) Which is the only reason someone can't collect unemployment, so I don't really know why they wasted their time with the appeal.
I was went back to the Doctor last week. I had a breathing test and another chest x-ray. No news really. My test were normal and my chest x-ray was the same. I go back in three months for another one just to make sure that none of the lymph nodes grow drastically or anything. I still haven't heard back on getting my hospital bill reduced so I'm hoping that is a good sign.
I have also started doing Zumba classes. It's a great workout and totally fun. It's three dollars a class or five if you do double classes. A couple of my friends started going so I decided to give it a try. Some of the dances are a little harder than others but it's still a good time. I have also started to weight watchers again. It's pretty much the only diet that ever really works for me. I just don't do well eating weird gross food that someone else tells me to eat and when. I have lost three pounds already and look forward to my pants fitting again.
Joe is also doing weight watchers with me. There are some good and bad things about us doing it together. It's good that we are both trying to do the same thing and not eat crap in front of the other person. However, he gets way more points than I do and always loses more weight. Which is crap. Stupid female metabolism. I hope to say that it's going well in future posts. That's pretty much it for now.
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