So Joe and I have been married a little over twenty days now. But everyone seems to think that I should be pregnant already. Or keeps asking me when we are going to have them. Give it a rest people! Ugh!
To be perfectly honest I have very mixed feelings on motherhood. Probably the biggest one being that I dont really care for children. The ones I really care to be around are my nieces and nephews. But I love that I get to give them back at the end of the day.
And all the crying, whining, puking, and poop. Lots and lots of poop. Im sorry but there is nothing fun about wiping an ass. And yes it is just gross. I hate it when people say "Oh its not that bad." Shut up. Yes it is. Stop lieing to yourself. I think that people sometimes just want to bring you into their misery so they wont be alone in it.
Ok so its not all misery. I feel my biological clock ticking. Whereas I never did before. Whenever I think about becoming a mom I go from being excited to thinking, "umm not so much." Another reason Im not chomping at the bit is pretty shallow. I dont want to get fat. I mean I already have a shaky self esteem and cant stand the sight of pictures of me. I have a horrible metabolism and gain weight just by looking at food. Baby weight is just not another problem I need in my life. Especially at the gym. Judge me if you must but for someone like me its a big deal.
And I just dont know if I can hack it. I struggle everyday just to get through the day without feeling like a screw up. Yeah like I can really handle being responsible for another human being right now. Cleaning a litter box is about as much as I can deal with at the moment.
You are too funny :)
ReplyDeleteI said it before and I meant it - make sure you are ABSOLUTELY, TOTALLY, 100% ready before having kids because getting fat and wiping asses is nowhere near the hardest part.
And yes, everyone says this and it's totally annoying to people without kids, but I'm gonna say it again because I swear Lindsey, it's true: it's worth it. The weight, the lack of sleep, the constant poop, the crying... it's worth every second because as much as you love your nieces and nephews, it's just a glimpse into the love you'll have for your own children. Nothing can compare. Nothing. But it is the greatest sacrifice you will ever make.
That said, when people ask you about getting pregnant, tell them to go stfu! lol