Cars and Things

I came home from my overnight shift just before 6:30 am this morning. I jumped in the shower to go to my day job. I left early because as you can imagine I needed a coffee. Driving down the hill I hear the familiat sound of a flat tire. I pull over to the mailbox because well; number 1 that was my destination and number 2 that's not a good sound. Yep totally flat. And a broken rim. Awesome.

Luckily, the gas station was just at the bottom of the hill. I went inside to get change and the lady tells me it might not work. Also awesome. However, it worked and I filled up but drove back home. I told Joe what happened but he didn't really grasp the situation as he was still half asleep. I borrowed his car and went on my merry way..... Okay I was not in a very merry mood by then. Close to tears actually. I just had two flat tires months ago and had to get one replaced. Having to put more money into another one just wasn't a great thought. Especially after about 4 hours of sleep in two days. But at least I got my coffee. And it was damn good I tell you.

I basically spent the rest of the day trying not to think about that damn tire. But of course that didn't happen. When I came home Joe checked the air. We filled up again and made a plan to get the tires looked at tomorrow. Joe will take my car in while I go to work. I just hope it doesn't cost too much. It's hard to save money for a new car when I keep having to put money in the piece of crap one that I have.

After pondering this day further in my sleep deprived haze. For every stupid thing that happened I had something positive to be grateful for. If I hadn't been going to the mailbox I may not have stopped and continued driving. If I hadn't had left early to get coffee I would have been late for work. I have two lame paychecks coming this week but it's better than none. Joe helped me calm down and has the day off tomorrow so he can take my car in. And he made me dinner since I was too tired to really function. Tomorrow is a good day because it's one step closer to the weekend and I only work at one job.

I'm actually quite amazed that I have been able to type this. Off to bed for me. But just for fun here's another random photo.

Baby baby baby...blech!

So Joe and I have been married a little over twenty days now. But everyone seems to think that I should be pregnant already. Or keeps asking me when we are going to have them. Give it a rest people! Ugh!

To be perfectly honest I have very mixed feelings on motherhood. Probably the biggest one being that I dont really care for children. The ones I really care to be around are my nieces and nephews. But I love that I get to give them back at the end of the day.

And all the crying, whining, puking, and poop. Lots and lots of poop. Im sorry but there is nothing fun about wiping an ass. And yes it is just gross. I hate it when people say "Oh its not that bad." Shut up. Yes it is. Stop lieing to yourself. I think that people sometimes just want to bring you into their misery so they wont be alone in it.

Ok so its not all misery. I feel my biological clock ticking. Whereas I never did before. Whenever I think about becoming a mom I go from being excited to thinking, "umm not so much." Another reason Im not chomping at the bit is pretty shallow. I dont want to get fat. I mean I already have a shaky self esteem and cant stand the sight of pictures of me. I have a horrible metabolism and gain weight just by looking at food. Baby weight is just not another problem I need in my life. Especially at the gym. Judge me if you must but for someone like me its a big deal.

And I just dont know if I can hack it. I struggle everyday just to get through the day without feeling like a screw up. Yeah like I can really handle being responsible for another human being right now. Cleaning a litter box is about as much as I can deal with at the moment.

Ball and Chain

So it's official. Me and Joe tied the knot on Sunday, August 22nd. With all the events leading up to it I haven't had time to keep up on blogging. Even now I should be going to bed.

I don't have any of the profesional pictures back yet sadly. But they will be up somewhere as soon as possible. We spent the nigh at the Davenport hotel and spent time opening presents and with family on Monday. Of course we waited until the last minute to pack and ended up having what I like to call a "mini argument" over the suitcases. But we did it and finally made it to Waikiki.

We went shopping, snorkeling, parasailing, on a submarine, and of course the beach. And I'm happy to say I didn't get burned!!! Joe on the other hand not so much. His back and shoulders suffered severely. And FYI Noxzema will help a sunburn. Who knew right? We also thought we came home that Saturday. But really we had until Sunday. Why, I don't really know. So with an extra day and almost no money left we took the trolley to the mall and walked to Wal-mart and Ross. Which the Ross was amazing btw. Two stories!!!

After arriving home at 12:30 am I had to work at 8:30. So a short nap before the work marathon began. Monday-Wednesday are killer days for me. (See previous blog) Today I went to the hospital to visit my stepdad. After coming home and trying to upload pictures but swearing a lot instead I gave up. I haven't even unpacked yet.

Arggg. It's a disaster in here and I'm exhausted. Does it ever end??