My Soap Box

So pretty much since the day I was born I have been an alien. Meaning that I have always thought about things different than most people. But living in a stink hole conservative town where everyone things almost the same, it's easy to do.

I guess you could day I'm liberal. Okay way liberal on most things. As a child in Sunday school whenever they would bash on other religions I remember thinking, "umm that's not right" And don't try to act like they don't at your church because they do just in subtle ways. But let's not get into that. In 7th grade the health teacher told us that most child molesters are gay. No, I'm not kidding she actually said that to the class. She also told us that homosexuality is a sin. The fact that she got away with this still blows my mind. And just in case someone reading this doesn't have a brain the VAST majority of child molesters are straight men.

I support love plain and simple. All these people spending time and money boycotting gay marriage doesn't make sense to me. Let's see we're in two wars, the economy's in the toilet, thousands don't have jobs, and this is what we focus on???? Ugh! Let's worry about those things please. Not what others are doing in their personal lives. And this whole using the bible as your excuse to ban gay marriage shouldn't even be valid, In fact it's not. Last I knew we have separation between church and state in this country. So saying that you're religion doesn't believe in something...well for lack of better words is a bullshit argument. So if my religion says that I don't believe in lawn gnomes, does that mean that everyone with one in their yard needs to remove it even though it doesn't affect me or my life? See people that's how retarded you sound.

One last thing on this issue before I move on. I find it a tragedy that the money that these people spend on this issue is not spent elsewhere. I mean if they are trying to do something for God why don't they put that money towards helping foster care, feeding the homeless etc. Hell even shoveling dog poop in the park would be more productive with the money they waste just to but in to someones bedroom.

Why is don't ask don't tell still in effect? The military tries to say that they don't discriminate but they do. It makes no sense to me. So they say you can be gay but just as long as no one hears, speaks, acknowledges, or knows about it. And if they do find out they kick you out. Sounds like discrimination to me. If we are in two wars wouldn't they want all the help they can get. Personally anyone that wants to/has/is serving our country gets my respect.

And one more thing then I'll try to lay off religion. (try I said) Being muslim doesn't make you a terrorist for the hundredth time. Obama is not a terrorist simply because of his name people come on now really??? Use your head a little bit please.

I also work at Planned Parenthood which already sets some people off. Quite frankly I don't really care what you think because I'm proud to work there. I think that every women has the right to her body. And it really gets my goat when insurance will pay for Viagra but not birth control. Or when pharmacist refuse to supply a patients birth control or plan B. Since when does a pharmacist decide that? What people do with their prescriptions is none of their business. And in case some of you didn't know plan B is NOT an abortion pill. And just because I work at Planned Parenthood does not mean that I am pro abortion. (no one is, again back to using your heads people) Pro- choice is something entirely different. Do we want people to use birth control to prevent unintended pregnancies? Yes, but we don't live in a perfect world and you don't know what the person sitting next to use has gone through. We had a patient in the lobby crying because she had been assaulted and thought she may be pregnant. Who am I to judge her and what she does?

I don't have a problem with pro life people. That is their opinion and that is fine. I only have a problem with the radicals who bomb clinics and encourage violence against providers. If these people care about life so much why are they trying to end if for others. It's just hypocritical really. Oh and the protesters that stand outside everyday, could use please move your gigantic picture of Mary back so you don't cause a damn accident.

I also admit that I am not the smartest person in the world and I'm not some big expert on anything. But don't accuse me of not having a real opinion or that I think this because I heard it somewhere. I have a brain, I use it I make my own decisions and I'm not easily influenced. I am a social work major after all so maybe I'm more inclined to want to root for the little guy. And I grew up going to church so don't accuse me of not knowing that side of the story. I do. And quite frankly I stopped going because I disagreed so much. It all started in youth group when the youth leader said we shouldn't read Harry Potter. That was pretty much the beginning of the end. Or the real begginning as I like to think of it.

I'm also not trying to offend anybody, I really just need to get things off my chest. I'll respect what you believe if you respect me. All's I ask is that we all start thinking about things before we make a rash judgment or just believe what someone else says. I also realize that if I were in another country I could get stoned to death for writing something like this. Another reason I'm grateful to be where I am right now. This also may not be my best writing either but my mind is a jumble of thoughts and I tried to organize them the best I can. Vote on election day!

Working Hard for the Money

Work, work work, all day long. Has kind of been my anthem since about May. So my work week is about 60 hours. When I was still working at Helping assholes I worked 7-3 giving me more time to sleep. Whereas at Planned Parenthood I work until 4:30 so I lose about 2 hours. I work at Sallys House 11pm-6am three nights a week. But I do get the weekends off which is a nice change from working at Helping jerkoffs.

I like my new job at Planned Parenthood but it is very different from anything I have ever done. I feel like people jus expect me to know certain things. Such as medical shit that I have never seen or done before. All the abbrevations in charts are very confusing at first. I also have 2 different jobs there. I was hired for 3 days of follow up work. This includes sending letters, making phone calls etc. And 2 days of front desk at a different location. I learned the follow up work first because there was no spot for me at the valley clinic (where I do the front desk) and it just made sense to learn them one at a time. So after a month of working with Tina (my trainer in case you couldnt figure it out) I was set free on my own. And I feel fairly confident in this part of my job and I enjoy it.

Ugh now onto the front desk. So far it pretty much blows. I started learning it a few weeks ago. But only doing it 2 days a week. This really slows down the learning process as you need lots of repetition to remember everything.(And theres alot) Everyone also does things a little differently too. So depending on who Im working with I learn it a different way and get confused. But I think the most frustrating part is a few people just act so irritated and put out that I dont know everything. Apparently they forgot what it is like being the newbie. As if I somehow decided to mess up on purpose to ruin their day. One girl I swear just seems irritated by my presence. I also had to sign an incident report yesterday because I fucked up on something.

I am harder on myself then they could ever be but it still sucks. I never got written up at subway or helping asshats. (one time at McDonalds okay. And only because I didnt show up for my shift geez. But I didnt know I was supposed to work.) Anyway, Im used to being the best not the dumb girl that people avoid. I just feel that I will never learn it or be good. Im thinking of quitting Sallys house in December but I am afraid that once I do Planned Parenthood will realize I am a dumbass and let me go. I also am tired of being exhausted all the time and never having time to go to the gym. I am getting fatter and losing sleep by the second. Despite all the stress its still better than my old job at Helping deuce bags. Okay, so its really called Helping Hands but I like my names better. Much more descriptive of how things really run there. Lets hope I never end up back there. *shudders*